I knew it.
I had seen it coming through my way but I did nothing to even protect myself, let alone to put a stop to it to avoid a severe heartbreak. I blindly let the troubles coming through me instead, and blindly wished that things would naturally changed to what I wanted them to be.
Funny that I thought I could handle the situation while I, in the first place, was actually sitting there in my very own comfort zone merrily watching the fate taking over my happiness out of my way. I didn't have the strong will, the power that I needed most to firmly hold and protect what I treasured most in my life and what I supposed was mine.
And now, struggling alone is myself, facing the fact that I had actually lost in the battle of defending what I believed was mine, mine alone.
I led myself to believe that I am the one, always the only one, forever and ever. In my most conscious mind I foolishly let myself believed that hearts could never change.
How I was wrong....
Now that everything is gone.....
2 comments:
hey zhariz. blogged hop from awan's place. ermm...sometimes, what we thought is not actually the real thing.
gotta be extra sensitive over stuff, alrite? you take care and take time to be sad. you'll be waking up one day, being happy and cheery and all. i haven't had that day ey, though.
take care..
time will heal. but you must help urself too ...
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